Satisfaction

about Neptun:

what is important:

not the doing of the right thing

not the doing of the wrong thing

the connection with self is important,

self is not a thing self is the essence

when I am awake, whether I sleep or not I am connected with my essence simply the connection with self is the expression of trust ...

cause there is no no trust of self.

trust is necessary when I am disconnected,

then I am looking for some 'thing' I can project my trust upon;

but there is 'no thing' so the expression of trust projected upon a thing is never calming, satisfactory.

the german word for satisfaction is Befriedigung ...

in there is the word 'Friede' = peace.

so satisfaction is the peace within me and the peace within me is, when I am aware of my essence, which is the connection with myself.

this state of beingness excists only in the now -

it includes the past and the future, but it is not the past and the future.

being in the now and connected with self, I am aware of the believes, the truths, the blueprint: they are like walls - I respond to them or not, that is my choice. I can also merely be aware of them and let them be; when I dont respond then they pass like a tone of a song. Or I can see them as precious stones,

But when I hold tight to them, I express responsability - I pretend to be the owner. When I am the owner, my concentration is upon them to the exclusion of all else - that requires effort and the effort is tension. when I merely perceive them, touch, smell, hear, see taste them - they are a piece of music, which I enjoy. But, whatever I choose is not important - as long as I sense the connnection with my self.

when I am connected with my self, I am aware of the impulses: they need not be translated into thought (although they may, as the inner voice) ;

by following the impulses in the moment all desires are met, perfectly. that is the real satisfaction.